04996cam a2200565 i 4500 953842928 OCoLC 20241001133134.0 160916s2017 nyu b 000 0aeng 2016041381 9780399173387 0399173382 (OCoLC)953842928 (OCoLC)974945375 Penguin Group USA, Attn: Order Processing 405 Murray Hill Pkwy, East Rutherford, NJ, USA, 07073-2136 SAN 201-3975 AJM pcc n-us--- 362.76 Stevens, Michelle (Psychologist), author. 18403 Scared selfless : my journey from abuse and madness to surviving and thriving / Michelle Stevens, Ph. D. New York : G.P. Putnam's Sons, [2017] 292 pages ; 24 cm text txt rdacontent unmediated n rdamedia volume nc rdacarrier Includes bibliographical references. Introduction: Miracle on Geary Street -- Part I. Abuse -- Stalin's Chicken -- The Pied Piper -- Story of M -- Tricks are for Kids -- Part II. Consequences -- Scared Selfless -- Tommy, Can You Hear Me? -- Rebel Without a Core -- The Village Idiot -- Part III. Healing -- Daze of My Life -- Searching for Judd Hirsch -- All You Need Is Love -- The Many Faces of Me. "Michelle Stevens has a photo of the exact moment her childhood was stolen from her. In it, she's only eight years old and posing for her mother's beguiling boyfriend, Gary Lundquist--an elementary school teacher, neighborhood stalwart, and brutal pedophile. Later that night, Gary locks Michelle in a cage, tortures her repeatedly, and uses her to quench his voracious and deviant sexual whims. Michelle can also pinpoint the moment she reconstituted the splintered pieces of her life. Just a few years after being confined to a mental hospital and at the mercy of an alternate personality who kept trolling for sadistic men, she's in cap and gown receiving her Ph. D. in psychology--and the university's award for best dissertation. The distance between these two points is the improbable journey from torture, loss, and mental illness to recovery that is Michelle Stevens's powerful memoir, Scared Selfless. Gary Lundquist kept Michelle as his sex slave for six years. During that time, he waged a campaign of unimaginable cruelty. He pimped her out to countless men for prostitution and forced her to perform in 'kiddie porn' when it was legal and shown in Times Square. It took fifteen years, three hospitalizations, and multiple suicide attempts for Michelle to work through Gary's dark legacy. She suffered from post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD), anxiety, depression, and developed multiple personalities. There was 'Chelsey, ' the rebellious teenager who told her boss to shove it; 'Vicious, ' a tween with homicidal rage; and 'Sarah, ' a sweet little girl who brought her teddy bear on a first date. In this harrowing yet unflinching look at her own experience, Michelle, who was inspired to help others heal by becoming a psychotherapist, sheds light on the all-too-real threat of child sexual abuse and the psychological effects on its victims and best methods for healing, based on her own struggle with PTSD and dissociative identity disorder (more commonly known as multiple personality disorder). Scared Selfless is an examination at the extraordinary--and inexplicable--feats of the mind in the face of unspeakably horrifying trauma and the story of Michelle's courageous road to healing, recovery, and triumph"-- Provided by publisher. Stevens, Michelle (Psychologist) 18403 Stevens, Michelle (Psychologist) Childhood and youth. 18404 Adult child sexual abuse victims United States Biography. 18405 Sexually abused children United States Biography. 18406 Child sexual abuse United States Case studies. 18407 Mental illness United States Case studies. 18408 Healing United States Case studies. 18409 Women psychologists United States Biography. 18410 Enfants victimes d'abus sexuels devenus adultes États-Unis Biographies. 18411 Enfants victimes d'abus sexuels États-Unis Biographies. 18412 Maladies mentales États-Unis Études de cas. 18413 Guérison États-Unis Études de cas. 18414 Femmes psychologues États-Unis Biographies. 18415 Autobiographies. 777 Nonfiction. 1230 Autobiographies. 777 Autobiographies. lcgft 777 Autobiographies. rvmgf 777 Online version: Stevens, Michelle (Psychologist). Scared selfless. New York : G.P. Putnam's Sons, [2017] 9780698185562 (DLC) 2016043819 .b148038888 ddc BOOK 30090 30090 ddc 0 0 ABELJ ABELJ NF 2024-10-01 15.00 2 362.76 STEV 66543 2025-09-19 2025-09-12 2024-10-01 BOOK 1